Is it weird, that I wish I was insane, and want to be with someone insane as well?

I've always been a fan of insanity, and recently, if feels like I'm leaning towards it. In my head, if I was to enact the g-rated version of my thoughts, I'd be locked up for good. I truly wish I was insane enough to let my sense go and enact it. I know that if I was to allow it to slip from my control, I very easily would be. And, the funny thing is, I've always pictured an insane love. Some psychopath, that just wants people to feel fear and bleed as well. Maybe even for me, but enough to, mostly, hold off. I'm a freak, aren't I? That's more rhetorical. I know I am.