Please Help me, i need it desperately. (thoughts of suicide)?

First of all, I'm glad you realize there's a problem, and you're asking for help. Maybe you think that your parents wouldn't understand or wouldn't want to help you, but if they knew the situation was as serious as it sounds, I'd like to think they would do everything in their power to help you. However, since you're uncomfortable talking to them, have you considered a teen help or crisis line in your area? I'm sure there is one, and whenever you call, there will be counselors there who are trained in ways to help you. Maybe just a listening ear will make things seem better, or maybe they can direct you to the help you need--doctors, therapists etc. If you're involved with a church, maybe someone there can help you. And talking to a trusted friend might be good for you as well--yes it will be hard, but it will put your thoughts into words as you talk, and maybe give you more strength to talk with others about it. Don't be angry if the friend tells someone on your behalf--if he or she is the trusted friend you've chosen well, this would be the thing for them to do. It does sound like you have depression, which is a serious thing. You're already harming yourself, you've thought of killing yourself, and yet you're asking for help. You're so much stronger than you think you are!! You can do this--get the help you need, start back on the path to loving your life, and maybe even turn this experience around to help others who feel just like you do now. Good luck--keep asking for help until you get what you need.